h1

shameless plea for support

March 12, 2009

Dear readers,

I need you!

Tonight I have press previews for my show. This is when all the theatre reviewers and local awards committees come to evaluate your performance – before you even get a real audience. This is my first time back on stage since surgery and treatment and I have a huge role in this thing. I’m really feeling the pressure AND the effects this stupid disease still has on my body.

The 6-8 hour rehearsals, late nights, last minute changes and general drama have taken their toll on me. I’ve been sleepin 10-12 hours a night just to recover. My body aches, I need to wear knee pads under my costume (shut up), and I damn near fall asleep during director’s notes. Even just stretching out before the show, I’m reminded how much this crappy disease still dominates my body. (hmmmm…I can see my toes, but touching them? Forget about it.)

And of course, I’m worried that my performance will show that I’m almost a year out of practice. I envision reviews saying, “Brilliant! Except for the fat, cancer-ridden actress Chris Blumer as Lois, performances were detailed and inspired. Blumer is very fat and has lots of cancer and should stay on her couch and take Ativan. She sucks. Everyone else gets a gold star.” OK. That might be a tiny bit preposterous, but that’s what it feels like in my brain. I’ve never denied my drama queen tendencies.

So – please send me notes of encouragement and porn.

humbly,
CB

Advertisements

One comment

  1. “Drama queen tendencies” ?!? Absolutely not. “Fat”? WHATEVER! “Can’t touch toes” ? Neither can I, & I’ve got no excuse anywhere near as decent as cancer.
    I am certain that you are not just adequate but magnificent in your current show. Why? Because you are a smart, gifted, intuitive actor/actress (whichever term you prefer these days.) You have a wealth of experience & training in your art. You bring a natural humor & levity to the work. The way into your portrayals on stage has always been through the heart — both your own & that of your often breathless audience. And last I heard, that part of you remained untouched by this dumb-ass cancer…no pun intended. 🙂
    I for one can’t wait to see the show.



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: